Some days I want to scream at the top of my lungs I love this life, other times I want to yell cuss words and stomp on the ground because I cannot figure out why life is so stinkin' hard. Then I am reminded that there is so much more to this life then me. I know that I have a God who loves and cares for me and my stuff, but I also know that how I feel or what situations may look like around me are rarely if ever indicators of the truth. I feel overwhelmed, I feel like a crazy mess, I get afraid, I cry (a lot, but that's just what I do!), I feel ten emotions at one time and you know what Katie Jane...that is ok. There is no fixing I need to do to finally be ok. I am exactly who I am and who God created me to be, yes there is stuff to learn and always growing, but I am acceptable, who I am today is beautiful, adequate and pretty GREAT to be honest. As my mom and dad often told me growing up, "it's all good!" Yeah, I know, but sometimes I hate hearing that and really don't feel that way. God is good. P.S. that is my lovely sister who knows how to push the right buttons in my life and make me laugh amidst the storms of life<3
I come to THIS PARTICULAR part of the Pacific Ocean on the Oregon coast to breathe. Every year I get the privilege of spending a week at the Windwistle cabin in Cannon Beach, OR with all my sisters...i.e. my mama and my aunt mommy, her daughters (my cousin-sisters) and my sister. It never ceases to be a time of fresh air amidst the craziness of life and I am forever grateful to my grandma Mamie who started the tradition 23 years ago. So, this week of my life is something I look forward to each year and figure every possible way to get myself there when the time comes again. I come to the sea to breathe...to fall asleep to the sound of waves pounding against the beach, to sit by the big fire place and read a good book as the fire crackles ("everyone go grab five pieces of wood"), to go for early morning walks on the beach, and to drink good coffee (for me a chai tea or hot chocolate). But most importantly I go to Cannon Beach to re-connect with family and touch base with my roots. I LOVE IT, LOVE IT, LOVE IT!